“When the angel of the LORD appeared to Gideon, he said, ‘The LORD is with you, mighty warrior.'” Judges 6:12
I am going to Taiwan on that mission trip. Yay. And yes, it is exciting but of course, I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t overthink it, right?
I wrote last time that I wanted them to take me for who I am. I guess they thought I was good enough to go. Our team consists of John, the Missions pastor at our church, Brian, who has been on many mission trips and spent two years living and doing missions in Cambodia, Jack, who has been in and out of ministry at various churches, and…me.
Me. The girl who sits in the back of the church because it would be presumptuous to sit down front with all the staff and elders and the people who know them. The girl who listens way more than she talks at any group or class. The girl who comes and goes and tries to stay out of everyone’s way. The girl who’s one step above hermit.
When God called Gideon, He called him a “mighty warrior.” Gideon was anything but, at least in his own eyes. But God spoke according to how He saw Gideon. Have you noticed that God tends to call on the people who seem to be the least? David was the youngest son, the small one, the one out tending the sheep. And God called him to slay the giant.
So, here I am. I feel insanely unqualified to be sent to the other side of the world to minister to people. I don’t have a clue what I’m doing. I don’t have any experience in missions or ministry. I’m socially awkward, quiet, and introverted. All I have is a willingness to try, a willingness to serve, and a fierce determination to be obedient. That’ll have to be enough.
If God saw Gideon as a mighty warrior, maybe He sees me that way, too.