I’ve only posted a few times on this blog and really I haven’t even had it a week but since today’s Daily Prompt is the origin of your blog I figured now is as good a time as any to give a little back story.
I’ve been having a few rough years. Work has been difficult, I haven’t had much luck in the dating world, and I’ve been feeling like a failure. Right out of college I attempted grad school to get the Masters in Accounting. That didn’t work out. I did get a good job though. I spent the first two years of my working life trying to make a relationship happen. I spent time on different dating sites and on bad first dates. A blog or two is forthcoming on that. I was convinced that if I just had a boyfriend everything would be so much better. I would be on my way to becoming a true adult and I could be like all my Facebook friends. Another seems to get married or have a baby every week. I thought I could apply the mantra of “hard work pays off” to finding a mate.
Over the last two years, I’ve just given up on dating. The stress of work and being down on myself for not attaining what I thought I was supposed to have by my mid-twenties was becoming overwhelming. A few weeks ago I discovered some blogs on WordPress. People were talking about themselves in a public forum and some were even expressing the same thoughts and feelings I’d been having. I’ve never considered myself a writer but I thought I could give it a shot. No one may ever read this but just knowing that I put my thoughts down on paper and committed it to the internet is enough for me. It’s made me finally accept that my life is what it is right now and no amount of striving is going to change that. Sometimes it’s better to just let life happen. And in the meantime, writing about everything seems to give me some purpose outside of eating, sleeping, and working.
So in short, this blog is kinda like therapy for me. It’s been cathartic getting this crap out of my head and sharing it with the world, whether anyone reads it or not. I don’t know how long I’ll keep up the blog. If it stops being fun, I’ll quit. I may not always be funny or even interesting but I will be me and that’s the most important thing.